I have no words
When I feel this way
Sadness and angst
From you and for you
My hands go numb
When I allow my heart
To take the journey back
Towards the start of this road
I can’t forget the finale
The unwinding of the story
A frayed and tattered end
I can’t forget the future
Threads divorced from tapestry
Allowed to weave again
I clench my jaw
As the world turns
Is there respite?
Is there grace for the weary?
Is there strength for the weak?
Or is it all myth?
Is myth as powerful as truth?
Is truth more the power of an idea
Than its accuracy?
The outcome of a belief
More than that belief’s validity?
One can have knowledge
Of the machinery of the universe
But do they possess truth?
Does that knowledge inspire?
Is truth really just inspiration?
It’s you and me in this nightmare
That’s as often as pleasant as it is painful
Shared dreams, shared cracks in the shell
Humanity intertwined
Let’s not forget each other in the maze
My dead ends need your ways through
And my soul needs the one that belongs to you
Years are a purifier
Straining and sifting
Polishing the edges
Gems refined
You and I are rough hewn stones
Pulled from the dirt
And returning to it
Wizened by time
There is value in age
A shimmer to experience
Lessons learned
Gems refined
There is a fine line
Between trudging wearily
And walking lightly
I’ve danced back and forth
Across that line
Anxiety will do that to a person
In a moment
The tide can turn
From fear to elation
From panic to relief
Back again
In spite of my body
My emotions dance gingerly
Atop the nerves
I’ve felt it two hundred thousand times
The rush of blood to the head
Dizziness that only barely masks the adrenaline
An unholy fear that this will be the end of you
Triggered by what?
Confrontation
Arguments
Expectations
Last night
Shaking
136 beats per minute
Is this normal?
It is for me
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